come back.don't

You run.You're running from the past,running 'cause you're late, running from memories, running from all.And you arrive home and start crying.It came back.That feeling of weakness and dispear, of lonelyness and ..you feel forgotten.Left in a dark corner,under a thick shade,lost..lost almost forever.And ever.
I grow weaker every fall.I used to be a weak person and I'm still like that.This makes me shy.. and insignificant.I used to think I'm special just because nobody has told me this for at least 5 years,and now I've changed my mind.I'm insignificant and i need to feel like I don't care.I'm needless.Everything can go on without me.
I hate this season,I'm a different person now..I love me in summer.That's me.. not this annoying little person that complains all the time and just keeps saying needless things.
I used to like hugging you.I've been doing this for a couple of weeks.But i can't do this anymore.It hurts and i don't need to hug you.You don't need to hug me.We don't need to colide in one body, because all we had has gone for at least 5 months .But i just can't stop thinking and imagining how it would have been..
Wine combined with ciggarettes.Delicious.Add cold winter air and some friends.Unforgetable.Beer combined with smoke and the one you used to...to... Weaked relationship.We're making out things that chage us.Why?Because we need changes.We need new things, we need to remember.We need to feel better.
I used to like you.I used to like calling your name.I used to remember things about you.I used to care. I used to...